Monday, 3 August 2015

Tomorrow...


DISCLAIMER: I am very fine guys… Very! I am just bleeding but not dead.. I am just broken but not shattered…  I guess this is one of those days that I pray to be the reader and you guys the bloggers.. I guess this is one of those days I hope someone will tell me that everything will be alright.

**Deep sigh…

JdB: **With Lips trembling.. Sir I don't understand.. What does this mean?! Does it mean it’s over?!**Panting..

Call Receiver: **Stutters a bit.. Well.. I guess so…

JdB: **Inhales deeply… Okay sir.. Thank you... Ends Call on the 10.

Today is Thursday the 30th of July 2015.. And my world just crumbled before my very own eyes.. I don’t get it guys.. Aswear I don’t… I am not a good guy.. But I try. I mean I don’t keep all the laws.. But for the past 8 bloody years I tried… But why.. Why do bad things happen to me?! By GOD’S grace.. The easiest thing for me to get all my life has been money.. but I mean all my life.. I have had to experience pain.. I mean 1998, 2007 (where all this nonsense bagan), 2009, 2012 and now 2015… What did I do to deserve this hurt?! What did I do to deserve this pain?! Truth is I don’t know Gang.. But as I ended that call last Thursday.. I curved like a crayfish on the bed.. Just like I did in 2013… and all I could think of was nothing.. Zip! Zero!! My mind was absolutely blank.. It was over gang.. This was the end.

Dr. Duru walked into my room just at the Apex of the phone conversation.. hehe I think she came to check if I had any plate in my room as is customary of me after having dinner.. She is my ‘Junior goan wash your plate” reminder… Prior to this day… We had been praying as a family.. I mean we prayed.. We believed.. We hoped.. We had faith.. and when I told her what the caller told me.. She broke for me **My eyes are getting all watery and shi right now…  She broke down cause we never hexspRRed this aswear.. Dad immediately called for a family meeting on how to progress.. You see why he is our strength.. Always making us forge on strong regardless… We had to deliberate on what we were gonna do… I told him to sell my inheritance.. He ignored me like I was the sea breeze.. And then the meeting ended in peace… As I went back to my room. The more Junior Sorry I heard the more my eyes filled with Tears… “For the first time I saw you cry Today”.. Nneka Said.. I smirked… I guess just as the rest of the world.. All the while.. she only saw what I wanted the world to see… The Energy.. The smiles.. The Playfullness.. The Hard work,… The Dreams on my room door.. The hopes.. The strength.. The Woman wrapper… But she had very rarely seen the part of me that very few ever see… Hell!! I think only Ribena has ever heard it over the phone sev… But last Thursday yeah… She saw the part of me that was broken beyond repair…
As I looked out of the room window…  The clouds were blue… My elder brother tapped me on my shoulder and muttered the words “It will be alright, be strong” But sincerely.. Those weren’t the words I wanted to hear. I looked to the blue skies.. Luckily there was NEPA so the blaring Noise of Festac generators were AWOL.. and I stood there asking GOD why.. I asked him why he didn’t keep to his promise? I asked him why he let me work so hard for nothing… I pondered on why I had to feel so much pain.. Why always me like the legendary T-Notes said last week…  I asked him why he let bad things happen to me ALONE… But just then.. I realized that no matter how Mad I was at GOD.. I couldn’t hate him… Cause he has in the past 3 years shown me too much proof of his love for me.. Too much proof to ever doubt him. I cried gang.. I mean cold tear drops ran down my cheeks… I was broken again.. and this time… I was hurt real bad.

In the midst of all this Chaos and Agony of last week Thursday… As I paced the room like a mad man thinking nothing, but just too afraid to sit at a place for fear of thinking… I thought of Suicide for a brisk second.. but then it hit me that that would be me giving up on you guys.. On life.. on my Dad… On my Dreams.. On my Family… I am no Chicken! I Will not quit! and just like Reverend Father Anthony Njoku taught me.. The good times of life are far more than the bad hard times.. I wont do such... So as I kept pacing. Asa’s track (I think it was 66 on my stick) began to serenade my ear drum via the HT’s speakers.. and then a line went “Tomorrow”. I smiled… Tomorrow.. Tomorrow. Tomorrow.

Tomorrow is a day I never used to believe in.. more because it feels like an excuse to not maximize today… But Now.. Here.. Right now…With all this pain those Bastards caused me regardless of my pleas.. With all this pain my non-challantness caused me in 2007… I am forced to hold on to Hope even if it feels like her hands are dead cold.. I am forced to believe in tomorrow… Cause at the end of everything.. Everything will be alright.. So if everything is not alright now.. then we are not at the end.. So don’t give up on your dreams.

P.S: As I got home on Friday… Dad said “If all my other children can get it.. then you who matters will get it too” PARAPHRASED… You see?! Suicide would have been wrong.. Dad just gave me a reason to Live… For him.. and for the family. I wont quit.. I will not LOSE THE LIGHT.

Shall We continue to live in Sin that Grace may Abide?! No! GOD FORBID_ GOD



**Changes Station! AbegI I wihh not come and goan be depressed.. Olorun maje.. They have Done their own.. GOD will do his own.

Yyyyyaaaayy Gang! I spoke to CatWoman last night.. Whopp ! Whoop!! I cant frigging keep calm.. That geh is just a bae like that **blushes.. I mean if you hear her voice ehn! Chisos! Hehehe temptation wihh catch you no be small.. She is a bae-ST bae.. and **drum roll… She is the YnC Reader of the month of July.. I mean she was HERE on literally every post last month.. She is a bae like that. Her picShur will be on the wall all month.. heheheh Whoop whoop.. I am excited much **Wears Mr. Nigeria smile..

Our Top 3 posts of July are.. **Drum Roll…

1. This ghen ghen post by the legendary iBlog with grace.. Its definietely one of my most favorite posts ever!! On Blogger .. And I mean EVER!!!

2. This post by the legendary Cladora.. It was tha bomb..  I mean it was the Shizzles ma people.. Motherhood Is a very ghen ghen thing for me.. Hence this post had me feeling cold and warm at the exact same time.

3A.  Weather for two by Ijagz..The truth is ehhnn Gang! I am still madly in love with Ijagz.. You know why! Cause in my world.. When you meet someboRRy that makes you happy.. Whether the world chooses to let you both stay in love or not.. As long as she makes you happy.. Then hold on to her.  This post was AMAZINGLY Hilllarious.. hehehe

3B. You are who Google says you are! Trust Lola nah.. She can neFer fall hand…  This post is an Award winner… Hehehe I guess I aint crushing only on Lola’s beauRRy.. but on her brainas awelll… Amazing article I tell you Gang.. Amazing..

So there goes gang...Thank you for the past 7 minutes of your time fam… You guys and MONEY hehehe are literally what wakes me up every morning. And the crowd goes Ooooooossshheey Turn uP! My prayer for you this week is that GOD will show you that he is GOD even when man makes it seem impossible to believe.
 

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#Udo #ItcanonlybeGOD

47 comments:

  1. Hey Mr. Duru, you got me worried. It is well. The downfall of a man is not the end of his life. When one door closes, it gives God the chance to open a wider one. So cheer up, remember that "everything happens together for good to them that love God." No situation deserves your head, so don't ever think of suicide. it is a no go area.

    Live laugh love:)

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    1. "When one door closes, it gives God the chance to open a wider one"

      Wow! Thank you soo much Mzz Cladora.. You know yeah Clad.. I kinda know that GOD has something ghen ghen planned for me through this.. But the ish is i dont get why things cannot go both my way and his way at once.. that way.. Both him and I would be happy.. Regardless how i feel though Bubba.. This blog and my entire life in the past 3 years have taught me how to Trust GOD more.. So amma just Dance like no one is watching regardless...

      What more can we say?! Ayam charged uP! heheh :)

      Thank you for being my Miracle Mzz Cladora.. I definitely dont deserve the Love and support you shower on my 23 years 8 months 22 days young and confused self... AyAm very Grateful for it and I just pray that the you and I will go a looooooonnngg way togeRRa.. Ya just an amazing someboRRy Mzz Cladora.. Aswear... and the crowd goes.. Awwwwgghhh...

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  2. Hello, I am unsure what you are going through -be it fear, resentment, pain, anger, disappointment, depression or other tendencies, but what I do know it that its only a storm that will pass. Your positivity will shape you, and hope will guide you, but the key is to never give up on yourself.

    Have a splendid month ahead, and keep your head up always.

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    1. "Your positivity will shape you, and hope will guide you"

      Word! really Deep Words! King BlogoraTTi.. Some times ehhnn.. I am forced to marvel at your widom.. I mean call me your biggest Fan yeah,.,. But your words are always apt... Thank youuu sir.. Amen oh! I hope i can be strong through this.. I mean I trust your words that this too shall pass.. hhheehehe I think its passed already having that the whole case is over and water under the bridge.. hheheh

      Thank you sooooo Much for always Sir.. You came on here and you brought a bag full of wisdom.. All of us on the Gang.. Writers and Readers are forever indebted sir... Thank youuuu Boss. GOD bless you King BlogoraTTi... and the crowd goes.. Ammmmeeeennn..

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  3. Awww Duru, I just wanna reach out and give you a hug, I dunt know what it is but I will have to borrow your bother's words “It will be alright, be strong”.....my goodness! there you were last night with so much liveliness in your voice, you made me laugh hard and I know you make other people around you laugh too....that's why my dear, laughter will never depart from your lips. Just #Believe #ItcanonlybeGOD.

    YnC Reader of the month? I feel honoured gang...thanks.

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    1. Awwwwggghhh.. You are such an amazing someboRRy CatWoman... You know yeah... the Onyibo man says that "he who laughs the most has in his heart the most pain.." I guess thats my Pandora's box.. So amma gladly carry it through this hell hole called life...

      Bubba.. I cannot appreciate you enough... I dont know you yet yeah.. But i literally adore your strength.. Your values of friendship and your support... heheheh I am totally sorry if i said anything crazy last night oh! the Alcohol had me Charged UP! heheheh Thank you Bubba.. Thank you sooo much...

      I went through your Instagram Page earlier today,.. and amma steal some of your words... here goes... Things might be a tad complicated now.. But we will pull through... Cheers to beauRRiful people.. Cheers to CatWoman... Amen to your ghen ghen Prayer oh! Amen... Thank you for being here for us.. Thank you for being an Angel.. Thank you for being our Miracle...

      Turn uP Turn uP! ladies and gentlemen.. You just gotta LoF CatWoman.. and the crowd goes.. Yyyyeeaaahh mehn!

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  4. I really don't know what you are experiencing at the moment but you can be sure...this too will pass

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    1. Thanks Nma.. I wish i could spill it all out.. But from Childhood i was taught to carry my pains in my heart.. But what I can tell you is that I am alright... Some youthful exuberance took all the pain away for a bit,.. I am Charged uP **Winks

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  5. It will always be better. I know you have the pain inside, but now is when you have to learn how to get your dancing shoes out and just Dance in the Rain if the rain won't stop now but am pretty sure it will.
    Keep your head up, it'll be alright.

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    1. "but now is when you have to learn how to get your dancing shoes out and just Dance in the Rain if the rain won't stop now but am pretty sure it will."

      Wow! just Wow! you guys Rock.. I mean Chief Alphasoar.. This was Deep... Truly yeah.. I will keep Dancing.. If the rain dont stop amma dance in it.. If the rain Stops beRra.. amma Dance some more.. Thank youuu sir.. These words are well appreciated.. Damn you guys Rock.. hehehe **In Drakes voice... I am Charged up.. heheh Cheers Oga Boss..

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  6. Did you say 7 minutes, nay it wasnt even close though I was completely lost and would not mind if you take my whole day. As you've once told me "blogging is like having an airbath". Sharing your mind and emptying it out makes you feel more relax and get your senses to focus back. Suicide ke?? It's never for you or anyone I know. Though life can be so tough and frustrating but those smiles and laughter we share go a long way.

    I really love your post today, I was consumed by every words. It's all well dear, it's all well... I'm happy you have a beautiful community right here! Thanks again...and have a splendid week.

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    1. "Though life can be so tough and frustrating but those smiles and laughter we share go a long way."

      What more can I say gang?! You just gotta loF Nike.. My! You are someboRRy eh Bubba.. You see the words quoted above yeah.. Amma scribble them on my room door, or my brain.. or my heart.. they are worth millions.. Sometimes yeah Bubba.. life just gets to us.. I think its an issue with being in the 18-25 zone.. But oh! well.. What can we say?! We dont die we mutiply... heheheh

      Nahh! Suicide is definitely not an option.. Life is sweeting me too much to do that.. I will be fine Insha Allah.. I just needed to vent and let go of some pain.. I mean i cannot Thank GOD enough for you guys.. You are my why.. My strength and my support... Had i been going through this alone ehnn.. It eezz sure that my gist would have been on Linda Ikeji by now as a " he Killed himself" story.. Although i wont deny that it crossed my mind.. But hey! Thats for the weak.. and i refuse to die and unlived life..

      Cheers to the future Bubba.. Insha Allah Nike.. You and I will go a long way.. and when we are oledr,, We will look back at today and just laugh... and the crowd Goes.. Ammmmiiiinnn!

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  7. it is well.just remember that after the rain comes the sunshine..it will definitely get better..i have been so down lately that nothing seems to do it for me..and just like you, i contemplated suicide..but when i thought about my family and everything they are to me, i felt bad for thinking that way. i know its hard right now but i have faith that our sunny day is approaching.xoxo

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    1. Yyyeeaaahhh! Oh wow! It sure kinda feels good to know that someone on here can relate to this crazy feeling i feel.. Someone that maybe feels exactly how aYam feeling.. You know what Bubba.. Once i am done with my Blog rounds this morning.. Amma try write you on G mail.. We will be fine Ms Chrissy.. Insha Allah yeah.. We will.. Shey you Hia! I drank a lot last night.. and half of my head is aching.. and it didnt still get beRRa.. We will be fine bubba...Quiting is for Bozos.. Lets hold life by the jugular and show her that we own here and not her us..

      I am waaaayy beRRa now Bubba.. I looked me in the mirror at the office this morning and made a commitment to me.. Hopefully that should go a long wayyy.. Thank you Ms Chrissy.. What more can i say?! GOD bless the day we met.. **Wears Pastor smile.. and the crowd goes.. Preaccccch Preacher!

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  8. Duru darlin whatever it is you going through just have it in mind that people have gone tru worst things before ok..just stay calm and trust in God..sweedy look for positive things to keep you distracted aii.. You'll definately be fine

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    1. Yyyyyyaaaaayyyy She called me darling! **Head swells.. hehehe inshort and inlong... Oooossshheeey Turn uP! **Pops Collar.. ayam feeling like a fine buoy someboRRy right about now eh.. **Winks hehehe Thanks Glowy Gloria **whispers.. i found out your real name... I am police like that.. :)

      I am waayy beRRa now Bubba.. I just needed to talk to someone.. Thank you for all the love and support Gloria. I mean all i am is but Confused and Y'all love me even in this state.. I am hummbled beyond words... Chukwu Gozie gi and everyboRRy.. Insha Allah yeah... Cheers to the Future with us in it.. We aint quitting on this 18-25 thats for sure... and the crowd goes.. Yyyeeaaahh mehn!

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  9. Epictetus once said “It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters"...Boss you have gotten this far means you reacted so well and that is a plus..those feelings,pains,thoughts they will pass...oluwa is involved...so sir all iz well!!!...
    Have a wonderful month and God bless

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    1. Oh Wow! thank you so much sir.. i mean Thank you! meeehhn ya just a boss someboRRy like that King Victor aswear.. You read this post by 4 ish! oh My Days.. I am humbled beyond words.. Tttthhhaaannnkk You Victor.. GOD bless you Sir...

      Truly it is our reaction that matters.. I mean Its not over till we quit afterall.. Thanks for your kind words sir.. Thank you for your ghen ghen support all these days.. aYam most grateful sir.. and I am wwaaayy beRRa right now.. Harp + Orijin works like magic.. **Winks.. Well thats after all the Drunkeness fades shaa.. :)

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  10. I'm so sorry Duru....we spoke the day before yesterday and all i could perceive in your voice was that usual strength and friendliness. I know you are a strong guy and trust me only strength and believe can truly take you to greater heights, ON TIME, which i see in you. I can understand how you feel..

    What happened to me on the 20th January this year eh.... I lost a promising job, fine i wasn't fully into it cos we were still undergoing training by the company in other to get the job of which i had spent 4 months and was already counting down to start having that big pay and brand new car...it's a long story which i can't start explaining here but trust me....that was the worst moment of my life as at that time ....i felt my world shattered, i felt like a failure, like a nobody, like maybe i was never destined for greatness, i thought maybe i was never gonna have anything good because every time i'm close to having what really makes me happy something just comes up (dat's how i felt) but nevertheless in spite of that, the situation gave me strength and for the first time in my life i challenged myself that within 2 months there must be a turn around and indeed just like a miracle it happened...i found myself in a prestigious organisation today and even though the pay isn't as high as that one there is a future especially having this current place on my cv.


    Sorry for my long story but trust me....it's gonna be fine SOON....better opportunities, better you, the pain is for a while but there lies better days ahead which i'm certain of. How do you tell that sweet story if you hadn't fallen before? situations like this makes your testimony super sweet.....stay blessed Papi. *hugs

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    1. "How do you tell that sweet story if you hadn't fallen before?"

      Wow! Temi.. Those words above pierced my Ishi Okpukpo head.. Oh my days.. This was a ghen ghen comment aswear.. Truly how do we tell an interesting tale if we didnt go through a tough tedious sad but yet still funny Journey.. Thank you sooo much for this Comment Temi.. Thhhhaaaaannnnkkk youu... hehehe Sheybe you nah see why we missed you on Blogsville?! We missed all this Sincerity and realness.. Thank GOD you haf kuku come back eh! **Dancing...

      In Other news.. **clears Throat.. and **Tightens Belt.. Share the money equal like PDP oh Biko! This your New N'ibi Ishe.. We mist to Wash it nah.. abi is it not so.. **Winks.. Thank you my LoF Dr. You rock Bubba.. Aswear you do.. And the crowd goes.. Mwwwaaaahhh..

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  11. in this world, ye shall have tribulations. be of good cheer for i have overcomed- Jesus

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    1. Oshey! Pastor SomeboRRy.. **Winks.. Thank you ssssooo much my Favourite Favour.. Ya the Best bae.. xx

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  12. Hmmmm...u've got too much on ur inside to weather every storm bro!when d storms come,it's either u walk on it or it drowns u...as for u, u will walk on it...I BELIVE IN YOU...forge ahead.d tears,d pain make life seems senseless n pointless. but I assure u,dere is light at d end of d tunnel...But trust in Him dat is able to make sense of all d nonsense.like u mentioned,He loves U.
    U r d best!

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    1. Oh Mehhhnnn Ore mi.. Thank you soo much for this comment.. It means PlenRRy PlenRRy to me.. Aswear... Yeah.. I guess.. We shall Survive.. As we don't die we multiply.. Thank you for Everything Mariam.. Thank you.. and the crowd goes.. Oooooosssshheeey Turn uP!

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  13. Chin up soldier, this too shall pass. No matter how heart wrenching, nerve breaking, gut ripping, nose-blocking-with-catarrh it is right now; this too shall pass! Hugs

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    1. Thank you Lola.. I loF you Scarra.. **E Hugs.. and then ** Covers Face.. **E Touching BoRRy aswear.. :)

      Thank you for Always Bubba.. Thank you for being my miracle... May GOD bless the Day we met Lola.. and the crowd goes.. Ammiiiinnnn..

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  14. DURU YOU WILL BE FINE! No matter how hard the blow, it's only there to get you stronger. Gold goes through the hottest fire to be purified. Just know, when it seems like it is too tough then it's about to get better. #bigsqueeshyhugsmate odigonma...

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    1. I mean ehnn Lohla.. I was making extracts from your comment above to Quote on my reply yeah.. But if i copy one, another would pop up.. and another and another.. Soteyyyyy i literally i literally copied and pasted the entire comment.. **Covers face... Thank you so much for this Lohla.. These words are definitely not just yours but GOD'S as well.. Thank you Thank you Thank you Bae.. I will be alright.. I already am.. you know what yeah... Permit me to Digress a bit.. But on Tuesday (August the 4th) yeah Lohla.. I looked at myself in the bathroom Mirror at the 8-5 and said:

      " Today I make a commitment to be a beRRa man"

      and although the causative context of that was totally different.. But thinking about it now.. It includes me Trusting in GOD'S awesomeness wholly.. Thank you so much for your comment Bubba.. It literally lit up my heart with love.. You Rock pass Olumo Rock Lohla Windfall.. Aswear.. Inshort ya just an amazing someboRRy.. and the crowd goes.. Awwwwggghhh..

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  15. Hey boo..... I love you and I know you are destined for amazing things. Just work hard and pray hard. God got has.... he has us in the palm of his hands and his plans for us is good and not evil...just don't ever let suicidal thoughts come up cos when theres life theres hope. Call you soon paaps

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    1. Awwgghh... Gang... you just gotta love Moby.. Ya just an Amazing someboRRy Bubba.. Aswear.. Truly Truly yeah Baby mi.. "when there's life there's hope." I will steal that from your comment and keep it on the table of my heart.. You Ropck Bubba..Aswear you do.. and the crowd goes.. Mmmmwwwaaaah!

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  16. Awwww Duru the blogsville comedian.. I know you know that this will turn to you for a testimony.. It's a phase and it doesn't last for long OK?...



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    1. Kai! See washing oh! Gloria ohhh!!! hheheheh Blogsville Comedian ke?! Utterly Confused me.. Ahaaaa! Fear god and wash me with Blue Omo and not Ariel nah.. aha! kilode?! heheheheh.

      Amen Bubba.. Amen... I trust GOD that it will be alright over time.. It was just too hard to accept my reality at that very moment... Right now yeah.. Like in 2012... I trust not in Chariots or Horses.. But in GOD almighty.. Creator of Heaven and Earth... Thank you for making me smile Bubba.. You Rock.. Aswear you do.. And the crowd goes.. Yyyyyeeeaaahh mehn!

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  17. Wow! You were going through your storms and still spreading happiness to many. When stuff like this happens, I always read Psalm 46.

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    1. Oh well Otunne.. You know what the Onyibo man says nah.. "He who smiles the greatest always has a lot of Darkness deep within.." (Paraphrased) Oh Wow! Psalm 46?! I will check that out ASAP.. Thank you Ada... for always.. Thank you for being my Otunne.. Thank you for "jah Rasta Fried rice" till tomorrow.. Thank you Bubba.. and the crowd goes.. Mmmmmwwaaah..

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  18. Hey Bro. Looks like you've provided your own motivating talk and got things back under control. Things get better and eventually turn out finer than you'd ever imagined. And like you'd correctly pointed out - the finer days do outnumber the low ones. Take things one day at a time and one hurdle at a time. You'll be fine bro.

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    1. "Things get better and eventually turn out finer than you'd ever imagined."

      Oga Boss T-Notes.. The words above are something aYam totally believing GOD for.. Bros you know ehhnn... The toughest thing about Trusting GOD is genuinely Trusting him.. But the event of Last week has helped me Trust GOD without doubt.. I mean the last 3 years have been ghen ghen to an extent yeah... and that was cause I trusted him.. So i will keep doing so.. And whatever he gives me I will willingly take... Cause I know he wont gimme stone when i beg him for bread.. heheheh **Whispers.. There is a pastor in us all i suppose sir... **Winks

      Chief of Staff sir.. I cannot even begin to Thank you enough for the Love and support you have shown to the Young and Confused Gang over the years.. I mean you were literally here from the get go.. and still you support us with your very inspiring and ever green words of knowledge.. You are a great Guy Baba.. Thank you for always and the crowd goes.. Oooooosssshheeey Turn uP!

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  19. Duru dear. It is unusual indeed to read sadness and worry in your post. I'm so used to read here with so much energy. But that's life. We can't always have sunshine. We need a little rain for the rainbow to come out. We need the lows so we can appreciate the highs. This maybe a low moment for you but remember that it's temporary.

    I admire your faith. Yes God got this. Keep holding on. Don't hold yourself back. If you feel angry, be angry. If you feel like crying, let those tears flow, man. Just feel your feelings but act accordingly. Don't let it control your decision making. You are not your feelings. ;)

    I hope the best for you always. You're still young. Enjoy each day. One day you'll look behind and hopefully just laugh at this.

    :)

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    1. ..And this Gang is why I love and Admire Lux.. Truth is I didnt think many would read this post.. But all your words have gotten me mushy but yet still strong on here.. I love you Lux cause you are one of the realest SomeboRRies i know on here.. And from your heart.. Flows.. No Drama.. No Wahala.. Just Love.. Thats all that flows from your heart.. Thank you so much Bubba.. Thank you for always... This line got me the most from your comment, You know the line where you went...

      "We need a little rain for the rainbow to come out"

      And i totally agree.. I guess last Thursday was my Rainy Day.. So i will just wait for the Rainbow no maRRa how long it takes.. I will wait still... Thank you so much for always.. You are just an Amazing someboRRy Bubba..and your words, care, love and support are something I hold very close to my heart.. You Rock Bubba... aswear you do... and the crowd goes.. Yyyyeaaahh mehn!

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  20. Thank God suicide was barely a thought for you, ah! Not when am beginning to fall in love with you oo. You can imagine, just the thought of you makes me smile. Kai! What ever pain you've gone through, don't add another day of pain to it sweet. Worrying will not add anything to your boisterous and loving self, it will only strip you of today's joy.. Mbanu!! It's well with you.

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    1. Awgh!!! Dear Rella.. Right now yeah... I love you more that I love doing Touching BoRRy aswear.. Thank you ssoooo much for this Bubba.. I appreciate you beyond describable words.. As your words have given me a reason to live on and keep on... You are an Angel Baby mi.. Aswear.. Yeah! the whole BrouHaHa got to me.. hehehe But insha Allah yeah... aYam fine bae.. We are keeping on..

      May GOD bless you for me Rella.. You are an Anagel SomeboRRy aswear.. and the crowd goes... Mmmmwaaahhh...

      P.S: SomeboRRy owes another SomeboRRy a Touching BoRRy Hug when we meet oh.. **Covers face..

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  21. Awww, glad to know you are getting better, I bet in no time you should be back to business(woman) as usual.

    P.S: Mr touching Borry, there shall not be a touching borry hug rather a warm nice hug Ok?.. Erm if you behave well, you might even get a kiss and a french one at that... *yes I said it*.. lolz

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  22. Chei, duru! Such a thought provoking post! I'm truly glad you have great ppl in your family cos in the end, they truly matter! It's not everyday we become our own motivation so big ups for that one lieber! Enjoy your weekend and I pray your faith shines thru very one around you!

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  23. I personally believe thing get bad so we can appreciate the time when it was good and anticipate "tomorrow"... We can just hope because depression would only make thing worse... Just imagine killing yourself and the next day the thing you killed yourself over falls through?
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  24. Tomorrow is always better and I always tell people if the people you love are not enough reason not to contemplate suicide just think of hell fire. The fear of hell fire is real.
    Just keep your head up, it's going to be all right.
    I might just write how to get a girlfriend post for you.

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  25. Tomorrow is always better and I always tell people if the people you love are not enough reason not to contemplate suicide just think of hell fire. The fear of hell fire is real.
    Just keep your head up, it's going to be all right.
    I might just write how to get a girlfriend post for you.

    Divadiari.blogspot.com

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  26. Everything is going to be alright ;)
    Hugs and kisses from Greece!

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  27. Hehheehheheheehehehehe....xooo dis is wat happened on the 3rd of August 2015.... nd u were drinking nd looking for whom to *********.... Anyways as humans we are, such period makes us weak nd we tend to loose our belief... bt God being with us, we get strengthen again... U r one strong fellow I know, nd believe it or not, I do admire u, with ur smile of all is well... trust u sha not to loose faith......
    #trulyItCanOnlybGod

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